should i be happy?
angry?
aiyo..
or..?

FAILURE

Do you believe?
My best subject in my study career..
Chemistry..
In d past,i very proud of myself on it..
coz i can do it very well everytime in d exam..
but tis time,I let ppl around me down..
I did it very badly..
honestly..very very bad..

I not dare to watch on my own result..
Obj. out of 50..i wrong 14..
Esei got 1 quetion i miss 9 marks on it..
tis is my record..
I have break my record..
D worst record tat i achieved..
Especially my obj....
14 quetions...unacceptable..

I dont like tis..
I hate tis...
but it happened..
tomoro chemistry period is on 1st 2nd n 3rd period..
i tink i will suffer..
during tat 3 period..240mins..
i wondering wat altitude should i have 4 me to walk out to take my exam paper..
smile?
cool?
pretend nothing happen?
or ask somebody else to take 4 me?
i wondering..
i not dare to imagine wat is my feeling when i watching 36/50..
really my worst record..
n de most unacceptable result tat i achieved..

I have to say sorry to somebody..
I really have let her down..
She is d one who put all her effort on me..
Jus hoping tat i can get good result..especially in Chemistry..
But tis time i really had hurt her so badly,deeply..
Sorry,mum..

Mayb tis is a warning from god..
saying tat..
"YOUR CHEMISTRY NOT AS GOOD AS YOU THINK"
maybe........

最近很多事发生
要安心读书也不能
各方面都出了问题
而且是一次过来到完
很累
真的很累

朋友
学业
还有..
我真的不能再顶了啊
我真的很压力
STPM的压力我已经受不了了

原来我一向来都是错的
是我太自私
没顾过你的感受
对不起

朋友们..
不要问我什么事
我也很迷惘
不知道怎样回答你们
好想一切赶快过去
离开这个地方

老虎不发威，不要当它是病猫

yesterday our physic teacher,Mr. Lim Eng Guan(LEG)..
finally cannot tahan his anger..
open fire on my class le..
bcoz of 1 sentence..
"teacher, u havent taught tis"..
he scold us 4 about half n hour..
and then keep quiet 4 d rest of tat period..
1st time see he so angry..
actually my feeling quiet complicated..
guilty...happy...affraid...
Guilty:bcoz i oso respondsible 4 his anger..
sometimes i oso talking in d class..
sorry teacher..
Happy:bcoz actually i really hope tat he scold us earlier in d year..
Affraid:bcoz i already very scare tat my physic wont get A in stpm..
after he scolding us..
i feel even more affraid..
haiz..hope god bless me..
but fortunately..
today in physic class..
at least all change eddy..
all concentrate on listening to d lesson..
none of us dare to sleep n do other homework..
i feel tat in his mind..
he surely tink tat all student inside d class is “贱骨头”
haha..surely include me la..
nid to scold only will listen..
watever la..
sorry la teacher..
haha

woot...
how many days left?
i really not dare to count..
many things still havent read havent study havent understand..
i dont think i can study all of that eddy..
especially my physic..
i try to understand..
i try to read..
i try to do more excersice..
i still donno whether it is useful anot..
nid to wait until next exam..
if my physic still cannot improve at tat time..
i really GG liao...
hope god bless me..muack..

原谅我啦
我不是故意的
我不应该泼你冷水
真得很对不起

算了啦...
不要再講了...
再講下去就真的會出事了...
算了啦...
真的算了啦...

不公平

为什么这个世界那么的不公平？
为什么这个世界如此残酷？
到底为什么？

为什么有些人能得到他想要的东西？
有些人却只能默默的等？

为什么有些人天生就要背负着绝症？
是否天要惩罚他们呢？

为什么有些人可以不劳而获？
有些人却下再多的努力也没结果呢？

为什么有些人天生就出世于富有的家庭
有些人却一出世就要为三餐忧愁呢？

为什么有些人天生就很聪明？
有些人却怎么努力也得不到好成绩呢？

为什么有些人被赐予俊俏的样貌？
有些人却只能整天为自己的样貌愁眉苦脸呢？

为什么有些人可以一发击中？
有些人却屡试失败呢？

为什么有些人的好心都没好报？
有些人坏事做尽却逍遥法外呢？

为什么我们对某些人好?
换回的只是冷血的回报呢？

世界上的种种不公平当中....
为什么就是你什么事都好过我呢？

为什么在这个时候要发生这件事呢？
为什么你要改变我的生活方式呢？
为什么你偏偏就是要牵涉到我周围的人呢？
为什么你要出现呢？！！！！！！！！！！

不公平

recently do anything again..

whole day jus play play play...

start to feel scare about stpm..

but really no mood to study..

donno wat will happen..

jus feel down whenever think about tat..

比较

人比人..
果然会气死人..
但是为何还要比呢？

竞争固然能让人进步..
但也会让人信心受损..
那到底是要比还是不比呢？

在任何方面都比不上别人的时候..
我们当然会不想再比..
但是行得通吗？
难道你真的能过着与世无争的日子吗？

在比不上，但又要比的情况下..
真的是很辛苦..
心l里得压抑着那种感觉..
不能让别人看得出..
真得很不好受..
但那又能如何呢？
要怪只能怪自己技不如人..

天生我才必有用吗？
真的是如此吗？
那为何又有人在任何方面都比不上别人呢？
这要归咎于谁呢？
难道这就是天意？
要我痛苦中过一世吗？
我不甘愿..........

是否我真的一无所有

是否我真的一无所有？

这几天，我都在反复的思考着很多事..

或许之前我都是在逃避..

那现在是我认真面对问题的时候了..

Bukit Merah

yesterday i went to bukit merah wif a gang of friends...
at 1st i planning not go to as they said wanna go lost world..
but finnaly they change decision n so i follow them lor..
jus wanna relax n have fun..

arrive there at around 10.45am gua..
i oso not very sure..
but very suay..
among 13 of us, jus me n ah jin d hand band dropped..
so 2 of us cannot go outside to have lunch..
nid to wait other to bring in 4 us..
so 2 of us jus sit n "sai tai yang" 4 more than half an hours..

starting from 11am until 5pm..
v r under a big sun..
so all of us finally bcome a real snake..
finally d day 4 us to change our skin has come..
at d end of d trip, all of us screaming for pain..
whole body especially d bahu..
haizzz....
everything oso nid to "fu chu dai jia"..

as a conclusion..
i really enjoy d trip..
no matter when v playing in bukit merah..
or building d damp..
or even v go tambun 4 our seafood dinner..
i enjoy it oso..
but 4 d prupose relax...
i not quite sure..
bcoz it really painful now...
aiks.......

最美丽的第七天

有时候命运就是很奇妙的
你以为要碰灰的时候
老天爷就会给你一个惊喜

如果爱上你是一种错
我相信这会是生命里最美丽的错
我情愿错一辈子

昨天的错换来今天的难过
今天的我，悔恨当初做错
难道今天的我，再认错已是太傻

分开是为了等待重逢
经历过考验的爱情才能牢固
才是真爱的的开始

上帝造人的时候只造了亚当跟夏娃
大概两个人的世界里
根本容不下第三者

黑夜的每个角落
都充斥着他的身影
弥漫着他的气味，残留着他的笑声...
他与她的感觉渐渐失去...
虽然失去了，至少你曾经拥有
和他一起笑着走过的一段路...

上帝创造天地万物
做了七天的时间
它将最美丽的事物
都放在世人的面前
所以人生在世
无论你经历过什么
只要你懂得珍惜
一切都可以是最美好的

Exam pass...

but not everything pass...

things just start to come...

2 weeks holiday...

how should i stand with it...

wat should i do?

wat actually m i thinking now?

wat actually i wan now?

i really donno...

wat i know is.....

i m very very tired with it...

Tired with homework...

Tired with family..

Tired with friendship...

Tired with love...

i wanna rest...

during tis holiday...

but i don tink i can make it...

coz it still kacau me...

So...

希望

我希望你开心..因为只要你开心，我就会开心..
但我更希望你得开心是我带给你的..

我愿意在你身后默默的支持你..
但我更希望可以牵着你的手陪你走过人生的每分每秒..

我愿意偶尔地出现来关心你一下..
但我更希望可以永远地在你身旁呵护着你..

我愿意充当你生命中的配角..
但我更希望可以有机会尝试扮演你生命中的主角..

人生中总是充满希望..
愿意尝试才能化希望为事实..
但希望往往不一定会尽得人心..

忍

原来忍是那么的辛苦..
要忍不是一件容易的事..
我不知道我到底还能忍多久..
真的很辛苦..
不知道我几时才会爆发呢？

忍是否只是在逃避着事实呢？
除了忍，我还能做什么呢？
每天还要面对他..
心里都会想跟他比较..
心里总是有根刺..
总是阻止不了这种歪念..

唉........................

水

水在人类的日常生活当中..
时时刻刻都扮演着举足轻重的角色..

水在人的身体里占了XX%..（忘记了它的数字..:-P)
所以人是不可以没有水的存在..
人每天都需要水来过生活..

虽然水不能治百病..
但水绝对能帮我们减少患病的机率..

所以不要以为现在还健康的你不需要水喔..
在空闲时，就去喝杯水吧..
即使很忙, 但也绝对不要因公忘水..
时时提醒身边的朋友吧..

这世上的每个生物..
都需要水的..
尤其是你..

人性

人之初，性本善...
这句话，是否正确呢？

人往往都是一种不知足的动物..
当还未到手时，人总是会想去拥有它..
当得到之后，人总是会进一步去占有它..
难道这就是人的本性？
知足常乐，难道不会出现在人的身上吗？
不知足，往往为人类带来不少烦恼..
当人与人之间的关系有进展时..
人总是会渴望更进一步的发展..
间接性导致人常常需要为自己的欲望和不知足..
付上相等的代价..
难道这就是人的本性吗？

人往往都是急于求进的动物..
在这世上，往往都常常拿自己与他人比较..
因此，不知不觉中为自己带来不少压力..
在压力的魔力下..
人将会丧失自我..
在任何事上，都急于求进..
适当的压力固然能给予动力..
但过分的压力却只会造成阻力..
难道这就是人的本性吗？

人往往都是不懂得珍惜的动物..
任何事上，人总是只顾向前冲,争做永远的第一..
但往往却错过了身边的人，事或物..
人走在路上，往往都是大步大步的跨..
从来没有注意身边的景色..
为何没有人愿意慢慢地走..
满满的欣赏身边的风，人和事物呢？
或许会有更美妙的发现呢..
人也往往只会在事业或功课上奋斗..
往往没去留意身边的人..
为何人不肯偶尔放下功课的压力？
偶尔留意身边的人..
偶尔关心身边的人..
或许你会发现有一些人..
一直为你默默地付出..
一直期待着你的回应..
一直在你身边等候着你..
等候着你的一个答复..
等候着你的一个奇迹..
等候着你的一句话..
难道这就是人的本性吗？

难道人的本性就是如此吗？
难道人的本性就会是人永远的包袱吗？

Wonderful Day

what a wonderful day 2day..
muahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!
as u know,2day is her birthday...
v use a 18inches bear bear as a gift 4 her..
luckily,she likes d bear bear very very very much..
unfortunely,i m not d 1 who suggest to give her d bear..
if i do know she so willing to have such a bear..
i sure will b d 1st 1 to suggest tis..
coz it surely will impress her very very much...hahahahahahahaha!!!!

it really a very very wonderful day 4 me..
can talk to her..
can celebrate her birthday to her..
n even can take photo wif here..(moreover it is jus 2 of us in tat photo)
hehe..:-)
so syok!!!
wat a wonderful day 4 me!!!!!!!!!

actually i oso "biao bai" wif her 2day..
sure i tio "ju jue" la..
but i oso feel very very happy now..
at least i try it..
at least i oledi told wat i wanna told her during tis few month..
it was really delightful 4 me although i have failed..
at least wat i can confirm is......v r still friends....
friends tat different from d past..
friends who will not b shameful wif v meet..
friends who will have lots of thing to chat about..
tats wat i really hoping to have 4 a long long long time..
finally i have done it now!!!!!!
wuahahahahaha..

hopefully tat bear bear will accompany u whenever u nid it..
no matter wat u feel..
happy,sad,angry,boring n so on...
hope tat bear will help u in d sense to make u happier..

actually i really donno wat m i talking here..
wat i wanna say is jus i really feel very happy 2day..
hopefully all bad things oledi past..

happy birthday ... luv u ...

如果

如果亲情永远消失在这世上..
那这世界将会变成如何呢？

如果友情不在建设在人与人之间..
那这世界将会变成怎样呢？

如果男女之间的爱情不再出现..
那这世界会否变得更简单呢？

如果在关键时刻下挫决定..
那是否会造成一世的后悔呢？

如果已经决定开口..
那会否是一个错误的决定呢？

如果天意如此..
那我们是否应该顺应天意呢？

如果结局自定..
那是否我们再怎样努力都没用呢？

如果成功的机率几乎是零..
那是否我们就应该放弃了呢？

如果辛苦可以换来他的快乐..
那是否就应该义不容辞的牺牲呢？

如果他开心..
那是否这一切将会值回票价呢？

如果明知道会被拒绝..
那是否还要坚持呢？

如果做不了情侣..
那是否还能做回朋友呢？

如果表明彼此的立场..
那结局是否会更完美呢？

世界上的“如果”屡见不鲜..
如果我不曾出现在这世上...
那又会如何呢？

WHAT A SHAME!!!

do u believe?
i oso cant believe it..
i havent talk to her during our 3 days cameron trip!!
wat a nonsense!!
3 days...
not even a "hi"..
USELESS NTS!!!
a lot of chances given to me..
but i miss them..
so STUPID sia!!!
DAMN!!!

i oso donno wat is d reason..
i not dare to talk to her even v r face to face for several times..
but i will sms her everynight n chat wif her..
ridicolous ya?
some1 tell me tat if i really luv her,
i shouldnt have such feeling(feeling tat not dare to talk to her)..
but i oso donno WHY!!
haizzz...

tis few day i oso thinking about whether wanna go for PA camp anot..
d camp is start from 29/3-1/4..
a day b4 her birthday..
so i decide not to go for 4 camp although ys ask me to go(sry ya bear bear)..
thus, i go to see our PA teacher OSC..
as wat i have predict..
i have been scold by her..
in office..
wif many teacher around there..
wat a shame!!!
i feel so so so down after tat..
but after i calm down..
wat i have done oso worth for it..
at least i can prepare nicer to celebrate her birthday..
if i given a chance to chose again..
i think i oso will rather scolded by teacher..
bcoz tis may be d last birthday i can celebrate wif her..

SO..everything still going on nicely n i hope it will cont going like tis..
next week will be her 1st birthday n mayb oso last birthday tat i can celebrate together wif her..
hope nothing wrong will going on..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ya..:-D

FEELING

recently have some quite god experience..
but d best sure is finally i have chance to talk to her la..:-)
it is quite happy n i m quite enjoy d feeling..

since tat day went to yen shan house,
i got quite a number of opportunities to talk wif her..
mayb i should listen to my friends advices earlier..
they keep telling me to be brave n try to talk wif her 1st..
but at tat time,
i not dare to do so..
so i miss many chances..

but since tat day,
i told myself to become braver..
as a result,
i got d chance...hehe^.^
so regret why i so timid before..
haizzzzzz...
but everything past oledi...
now i know wat to do..
i wont let myself to feel regret on this again..
never!!!

on 21st of March,
v r going to cameron again..
hope tat day come earlier..
since both of us oso join d trip..
and also..
it is my 1st trip or mayb oso last trip going out wif her..
quite excited n happy...haha:-)
cameron trip oso a quite meaningful trip 4 me..
(i started d feeling during d cameron trip last year)
quite fast, right?
oledi 5 months past...
oledi 5 months i have been suffered..

exam coming soon..
hope v can get a good result during tis exam ya..
best wishes to you..
hope you will do well in d coming exam..
gud luck!!^.^

FINALLY

long time havent wirte blog liao
recently many thing happen around me..
quite sad n quite angry sometimes...

but oso something happy happen yesterday...:-D
yesterday v went yen shan house to celebrate her birthday..
b4 went to shan house, v went to her house 1st to complete our gift 4 shan..
finally i got chance to talk to her..
very very very happy since nearly 1 month oledi i havent talk to her due to something happen betwwen us...
although i jus talk a little bit to her..
i oledi very very appreciate it..
i really like tat kind of feeling..
i miss tat kind of feeling 4 d whole month oledi..
finally got chance...wakakakakaka!!!!!:-D

when v reach shan house,i have more n more chance to talk to her...
although jus "chat" her,but oso better than nvr talk anything..
so i quite happy..
furthermore,she got look at me oso..
when i "chatting" her,v got look to each other..
tis make me even happier..
(cause i nvr try tis b4..)muahahaha:-D

but everything oso will have d end oso...
finally v decide to go back since she have tuition after tat...
i really don wan to go back cause wan to see her 4 more..
quite sad when they said tat wanna go back oledi..
jus can look zi shyuan car pass by me n wave to her..
nvr even said a 'goodbye' to her,she oledi went back...
yesterday night quite miss tat kind of feeling..
hope to try it as soon as possible..

but however,i oledi quite happy wif such feeling..
although it jus only a short while..
still it better than nothing happen..
tis morning in school i fail to find a chance to talk to her..
quite disappointed..
BUT I WONT GIVE UP!!
i will try harder next time!!!!!
hope god bless me....wuahahaha:-D

happy new year ya...miss u...:-)