erm~~~

Now I realized

My decision to come to NTU

may not be correct

I am not the one only suffering

my parents are also suffering

because of planning to buy house here

Haizz~~~

原来他们都是一样的

Just now talk wif my mum

I can feel that

she really hope that my bro and I can go back

as soon as possible

as long as possible

so that can 一家团聚

I also hope to do so

~~~~~~~~~~

Dota/Movie

I don't know what happen to myself

I never play dota since I came to NTU

I just watched few movies since I came NTU

But recently

exam period..

I pergi play DOTA

I pergi watch movie whole afternoon

WTF am I doing..

I don't know~~~

Birthday Blog

Part 1 (Friends)

As expected, no "huge" celebration on my birthday
as usual..same as last few years **except lower 6..
But my friends did celebrate with me last friday..
together with Yew Hong and Qian Xin birthday..

seriously, feel abit disappointed coz my feeling is jus like:

"haiz..again..no celebration on my actual birthday date"

But anyway..really thanks for the celebration..

coz exams are coming but u all still celebrate wif me..

Thank you very very much!!!

erm..
I get a CUP as my 20th birthday gift..

and also a small decoration thing tat used to hang on hp..=.=

Thanks for the gifts..
thanks for those who attended on that day..
really appreciate it..

And I also receive a birthday card too..

Thanks for those who signed on it too..

1st time I receive a card that contains so many wishes..

LOL..and also the comments..

btw..I got so emo and childish meh?zzzz

almost every1 also "don't so emo"..."be more mature"..

sienz nia..XD

(below is the link to the birthdaycard)
http://apps.facebook.com/groupcards/c/2D7S97x0KLe

~~

PART 2 ( Family)

2day..the 1st thing I do after I woke up is CRY!

(Note : actually Teik Sheng is a 哭包..XD)

I wanna check the time and I found that I receive a sms..

It was my dad's msg, wishing me happy birthday..

simple msg..simple wish..

but make me feel like wanna rush back home..

since this is the 1st time I din't have my birthday with my family..

during these 20 years..I celebrated my birthday every year..

But I never forget that..

without my mum, I sure will not having d achievements that I owning now..

I really proud of being your son..

I love you, mum!!

nevertheless..thanks to my brother also..

at my birthday night..

while I was thinking that no ppl will celebrate wif me..

While I was playing facebook game and ignoring my studies..

he brought a small piece of cake into my room and sing birthday song to me..

really surprised by that..^.^

specially thanks to woei liang, chee how, wei wei and jun lum also..

although just few of you..I still really appreciate of that..

(at least got ppl celebrate wif me on my actually birthday date..XD)

~~

many many many THANKS for all of you and ur wishes..

from facebook

from birthdaycard

from sms

from Malaysia

from NTU

thanks for letting me to have a great 20th birthday

~~All the best for u all too~~

~~Good Luck~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Exam => Holiday

Exam is coming

=>Exam is going to finish

=> Holidays are coming

=> Time to go home

=> HOORAY~~~~~~

It's is pain

But I will carry on

Expectation / Disappointment

Higher expectation always leads to higher disappointment

Don't always try to expect something to happen

No point to disappoint ourselves

Finally it happens

As I expected

But not as I wish

Thanks

But sorry

~~

Should I ?

Should I continue or not?

If I should do

then what should I do?

If I shouldn't do

then should I just simply give up?

If I shouldn't just simply give up

then should I do it secretly?

moral support?encouragement?

giving out w/o hoping for any return?

Ya, maybe I should......

Contradiction

The world is full of contradiction..

especially in my life..

should I go?

Should I do?

morally incorrect for me to do that..

But my heart tell me to do so..

SO?

do or not do?

moral value contradict my heart

NEED HELP

LOL

my mum ask me don't study too much

and she ask me go to play

LOL

~~~

Early birthday gift

1st gift for my 20th birthday
SBS A300 Surround Sound System
From MAE School Club


1st greeting card for my 20th birthday
From Hall XV Welfare Committee


~~THANKS~~

Good / Bad Guy

Good or bad guy should I choose?

Be a good guy

by wishing them good

Or be a bad guy

by hoping they break

but even things go as what I wish

is it a good thing for me?

What can I do for it?

Past

This morning,when i was going to North Spine by bus B..
There were 1 guy and 2 girls sitting behind me..
They were discussing how their parents wake them up every morning..
"my dad ...............so irritated.."
"my mum also.........so irritated.."
"ya lor..my parents also like to ..........."
Their conversations makes me feel guilty..
Coz that was what I did in the past..
I also said like that before~~~

Brother's Wedding

徐佳莹

What I learn and earn the most after I came to NTU is..
I learn how to care about my family..
I learn how to appreciate my family..
I learn how to help each other with my family..

But then..just now my brother came to my room..
coz 2moro he is going to have his econ CA but he is having problems with it..
he came to my room and ask me to help him..
I tried my best to explain and help him..
from his face, I knew that he quite worry about 2moro CA..
and can see that he not really well-prepared..
I really wanna help him..and I have tried my best..
But I don't know what else can I do for that..
My mood suddenly get very down when I was watching him walked out from my room..
Anyway, hope both of us can score well during our CAs..
Good luck for us..^.^

天蝎座

嫉妒心强

占有欲强

扮酷

then why you all still want to do something that will only make me feel envy leh?

envy but still can't do anything

this feeling SUX!

7 CAs are approching in the next 4 weeks

~~Wish me GOOD luck pls~~~

If u don't want to reply me

then SUAK!!

NEVERMIND!!!

I am so unhappy now!!!!
I am so regret of choosing NTU!!!
I hope that I can get back to the place where I originally belongs to!!!

watched video from youtube for whole night..
about how ppl propose and "biao bai"..
make me think of myself..
still single..evergreen..
hope to have it..
hope to feel d "xin fu"..
but everything not as what I am hpoing..
so sad..


~~~~~

徐佳莹

Just watched LaLa's(徐佳莹) concert on monday..
b4 that still not really know about her..
but after watching her mini concert at NTU..
really addicted..
what a nice singer and nice songs she sing..
(she also looks not bad..quite pretty..XD)
strongly recommended to u guys~~~~

~~~LaLa 徐佳莹~~~

maybe all the way I know who is she

but somehow I not dare to tell

for her own good

or maybe just to protect myself

Food in Penang

Here is the list of what have I eaten in Penang

Saturday (26th Sept)
Supper : Char koay teow + 卤肉

Sunday (27th Sept)
Breakfast : Wantan Mee
Lunch : Eat at home
Afternoon tea : Laksa + cendol
Dinner : Star View Restaurant

Monday (28th Sept)
Breakfast : Koay teow sup
Lunch : Eat at home
Dinner : Eat at home
Supper : Tomyam mee

Tuesday (29th Sept)
Breakfast : Curry mee
Lunch : Eat at home
Afternoon tea : Jawa mee
Dinner : Eat at home

Wednesday (30th Sept)
Breakfast : 七廊粿条汤
Lunch : Eat ba moi
Afternoon tea : Manggi mee (not cup mee oo^^)
Dinner : ba moi again
Supper : 点心
(Note : 2day eat ba moi is because my mouth got many lubang,very pain)


Thursday (1st Oct)
Breakfast : 粿条汤
Lunch : Eat at home
Afternoon tea : 红豆冰
Dinner : Eat at home
Supper : Char koay teow

Friday (2nd Oct)
Breakfast : 干捞粿条
Lunch : Eat at outside
Dinner : Eat at home
Supper : BM's Char koay teow

Saturday (3rd Oct)
Breakfast : Wantan mee


~~then I fly to singapore already~~~
~~like this, 1 week past~~~time flies~~~~~~~~~~

What actually I want?

Don't ask me coz I am also thinking of this question..

Honestly is about girl..

Honestly is I don't know which 1 is the real ...

~~~~~~~~~

谣言会害死人的

不要乱传谣言

眼看的未必是真的

耳听的更不能相信

三思啊!!!

Recess Week

Time pass rapidly..
it has been 2 months since I 1st arrive in Singapore..
half of my 1st sem is over..
and my recess week will start on 26th..
so sad since it is a late late late holiday..T.T
recently many CAs came together and feel abit stress on it..
but now all CAs already over..
left Chemistry's CA which is after recess week..
so now feel quite relax..
and what I did after my CAs finished was.....
PLAY CARD!!! XD
we went to hall 14 tv lounge and played at there..
start from 9.30pm until 4am..
LOL..siao eh..
but anyway..it was a good experience..haha..


~~~

MAE meeting

I din't speak even 1 word during MAE meeting just now..

ya..it is a damn sad case for me..

I should have spoke out my idea or comments during the meeting..

somemore just now our VP told us that..

every portfolio there will be a head sub-com..

that person will be chosen according to his/her altitude

or commitment (or other things la)

sounds quite interesting since it is a 7-points position..

BUT..

I am very off during 1st 2 meeting..

so I don't really think that I got any chance to get it..

Ermmm..the most serious problem for me in this case is that..

my poor ENGLISH..

I don't really feel comfortable in speaking in ENGLISH..

I scare to talk since others speak so well..

I scare that I can't really pass my message to them..

I nid time to organise what I am going to talk b4 I really do it..

BUT..

the tempo of the meeting was fast..

usually after I fnish organising, they already change topic..

SO WHAT CAN I DO?

1 more thing that I really feel upset with is that..

my idea was banned..

WITHOUT any presentation or explaination by myself..

WITHOUT even speak out the name of the game..

WITHOUT any voting..

as those b4 me, they presented their ideas 1 by 1..

so I thought that I will need to present mine as well..

so I try to organise what am I going to tell when it is my turn..

BUT..

things never happen in the way that I thought..

reason that I heard ( if I am not wrong la) is that..

this game quite similar with the previous 1(which is accepted)..

SO maybe my luck was too bad as my idea came after his/her idea..

SO maybe I just stick to small group discussion..

or maybe just...........................

is there any1 here to listen to me?

I damn bore with this kind of environment ad..

don't really have people who can just listen to me..

and not keep on adding problems on me..

Sad + Boring day

2day is a damn bad day for me..

very down for whole day..

busy but nothing to do(sound weird right?)..

but this is the true..

lectures start from 8.30am-11.30am..

after lunch,then I went to duty to sell donut for Rotaract Club..

here is exactly where I start to feel down..

I went there..no ppl choi me..make me feel sienz nia..

after a while of "discussing",finally I decided to go back to my room..

without helping them to sell donut..

wasted my time nia..

1 more thing that really make me damn dulan is..

MAE club's funfair proposal..

as a event subcom,they ask us to think of a suitable main sponsor to find..

and think a way how to involve the sponsor into the funfair..

DAMN!!!!

I not even know what companies are located in sg..

now they already ask me to think of a sponsor..

oh fuck..I really no idea how to think of it..

but still I cannot simply submit an idea to them..

coz when they chose us during the interview..

I think that I should be the 1 who are selected under 同情票..

coz I was last minute called by them..

tats why I not dare to "cincai" do things and submit to them..

so now..I have to rack my brain to think of 1 idea..

BUT HOW???

Today is a damn boring day for me..

Also is a damn sad day for me..

Coz no ppl know who am I..

T.T

1st time I dream of her..

what does it actually mean?

lol..XD

Basketball

There is a Sport Day going to b held in NUS..
It is a event for Malaysians..
so v are also invited to participate in d sport events..
the events include basketball,captain ball,volleyball,badminton
and even Big2..

but obviously..I only interested in basketball..
since I came to sg..I nvr touch basketball at all..
I miss d time when i was still playing basketball in Taman Bagan..
d time tat i really can do wat I like to do..
without any discrimination from others..

But now..whenever I told others tat i did play basketball..
their reactions are what I have expected b4..
so I din't really dare to tell any1..

now,even the Sport Day..
I also not dare to tell other i wanna join basketball..
And they also never jio me to play..

I really miss d past when v r still playing in Taman Bagan..
d time tat v start from 7am to 12am..
then change to 金山,order a cup of lao hao..chat for few hours..
d time tat v can screams freely on d basketball court..
d time tat v keep laughing on others..
d time tat v play basketball without following basketball rules..
meng chuen,johan,thee ken,tzy yi,keen hoong,sean yang,kho hin,
ewe lim,zhong zhen,chun chien,shang yang,yen li,shu wei..........
donno when will be d next time v will meet again n play again..
play as a CLB team..XD
play as a Taman Bagan team..lol
(joking nia!!!!)

Touched

This teaches us that..

For those who are in relationship..
please 珍惜眼前人..time won't turn back for us..

For those who are still single but have target ad..
don wait until everything is too late..
sometimes..even a missing word will let u regret for ur whole life..
just do whatever u wan to do b4 it is too late..


~~LOVE~~

Merdeka Night

On 29th of Sept, Malaysian Student Association organised an event..

which known as Merdeka Night in NTU..

obviously the purpose is to celebrate Malaysia's National Day..

At that night, all of us are required to wear formally to attend d event..
Dinner provided..

Awesome performances also carried out by those so-called as "lao jiao"..
which are Year 3 or Year 4 seniors..
There were sketches and advertisments which recorded few weeks ago..

The performances are really fantastic and also funny..

But anyway..

the question that they used in the sketch din't look like really love Msia..

Anyway..Well done~~~~

~~ Athena's group photo~~

~~girl in Athena~~

~~guys in Athena~~

~~me, chun hoong and main character of that night~~

~~me n Lynn~~

~~Group photo on the stage~~

~~supper after Merdeka Night~~

Funny

Hope it is funny for u guys..
(The funny part start from around 2min...
but if u r free enough, just watch d front part also..)

Enjoy~~~

Appetizer

Still lazy to write a long long story..
so just bring out some appetizer for u guys bah..
tis few days is the Student Union's Welcome Week..(17th-21th)
all the clubs in NTU have their own booth for freshies to get know more about them..
of coz..i also visited most of the booths..
not for knowing those clubs(honestly)..just to A the free gifts^^
so definitely..I got quite a lot of free gifts..haha..
beside free gifts..those clubs also will b organizing their Welcome Tea(mostly on 20th n 21st)..
therefore..I still can have 2 free dinners on each day..wuahaha..

and now..here is some photos about my free gifts..enjoy watching them..^^

3 days take 3 packets of same free gifts..^^

this is the free gifts in each packet..quite alots..

include vouchers(subway free drinks,spa,spec n so on..)

Bio-Essence samples also included..lol..


this is wat i feel proud of them..4 t-shirt which collect 1 on each day..

eventually..i get all..^^

totally 6 free t-shirt..include MAE t-shirt n engineering t-shirt..

~~Hooray~~

Anyway..don b so jealous..I pay for that..in my tuition fee..T.T

lazy to type..but seriously..lots of story to tell u all..wait ya..paiseh

Mamamia..Here I go again..

is time to leave..the time have come and I have to leave..
Leave my sweet hometown..Leave my home..
Most suffer for me is I have to leave my family members..
I never leave them for so long b4..
I really bu she de them..very very much..I really don wan to leave them..
But I have to..I promise I will take care of myself well..so no nid u all to worry much about me..
What I hope is..U all also promise me to take care urself very very well..
I cant stand beside u all to take care u all for this moment anymore..
Hope everything will be smooth for u all..
Healthy and happy life for u all will be enough for me..really..

Take care..my dears..I will miss u all every moment in sg..all the best to u n me..

Time to leave

it is d time to leave..
go away from our friends..
go away from our family..
go away from our home..
it is all about our future..
v have to do so..

my friends..
after couples of year for being 2gether..
honestly i really "bu she de"..
but since it is d fact..so i have to accept it..
1st is surely bcoz of i will b alone after u all entering Uni..
2nd is bcoz of i will not b able to play n joke wif u all for a long period..
no more basketball for few months..
no more dota for few months..
no more dong bou for few months..
no more amp square for few months..
no more tomyam mee for few months..
but i promise tat i wont forget all these memories tat u all leave to me..
all sweet memories for tis 2 years++ will b kept inside my heart forever..
hope all of u oso wont forget it and forget me..

take care and good luck ..
let us jia you 2gether and all d best for our future..^^

am I ur friend?
am I ur friend?
am I ur friend?
am I ur friend?

haiz

每次我都在抱怨..
说没人陪我上同样的大学..
都没有朋友..
但现在的我发现..
那些真的是我的朋友吗..
是我心里想要的朋友吗？
或许一直以来都是我自作多情把..
事实往往都是残忍的..

Back To Normal

All application closed..
All application have finished and complete..
Now just have to wait until June to know the result..
Everything back to normal again..
Nothing to do again..
any1 have any activity jus call me..
wuahaha..

Buying Camera

Recently got some money..
Plan to buy a digital camera..
Any good recommendation?

KL again

Going to KL again..
From 12th-14th feb..
But tis time not going to play anymore..
Going to UM..
Going 4 d International Chemistry Olympiad contest..
abit nervous..abit excited..abit worry..abit..............................
But since nothing to do at home..
then i decide to go to gain experience on my Uni life..
Although jus 3 days..
I think i will learn many during tis 3 days..
quite excited also..
hope everything fine at there..haha..^.^

不要把自己看得太重

你怎样对人，人家未必会一样对回你..
别人伤心时找你倾诉，不代表你伤心也可以找她倾诉..
别人遇到难题时，要你帮忙..
不要就因此以为你在他心中拥有一定的地位..
所谓的帮忙，讲白了，就是利用罢了嘛..
别人甜蜜时，哪里还会想起你..
这就是如今现实的社会嘛..
朋友..要拥有能共患难的朋友..谈何容易..
那不如闭一只眼..能有能共富贵的朋友，就好了嘛..
我们只是人，不是神..
不要把自己看得太重..
更何况，我只是一个很平凡的人..

~~起点~~终点~~

很久没更新我的部落格了..
要说忙也不是很忙..
轻松也不是很轻松..
考完了人生变得更无聊..
毫无目标..

圣诞节前一天..
我和一群朋友去了autocity..
还记得当时我和其中一位朋友讲了一句话..
"我们走了一圈，最后还是回来这里，我们的终点就是我们的起点.."
一句无心的话:"我们的终点就是我们的起点.."..
当下之意，可能只是一句笑话..
但在深思后,这句话岂不也是在反映着我们的人生..

有时回头想一想，我做人,忙忙碌碌地过了十九年..
到底我做了什么事..
常听人说，如果能回到小时候，那该多好..
无忧无虑过日子,应该都是大多数人的梦想吧..
不管做什么事，都是希望老了可以无忧无虑..
考好成绩..做工赚钱..结婚生子..为善积福..等等
都是回到同一个希望..
都是为了同一个最原始的希望..

对身边的人何尝不是..
小时候，总是依靠着父母..
成年时总是会叫叛逆..
常外出靠朋友..
吃了一定的苦头时,就吵着想家..
回到最原始的理念:"亲情是无价的"..
到了长辈不再时，才常后悔当初的不是..

感情更不用讲..
说自己是多么多情..
说自己是多么潇洒..
说自己是多么拿得起，放得下..
到最后还不是渴望有位能和你白头偕老的伴侣..
中间间间断断地喜欢这个喜欢那个..
到头来才发现，第一任是最好..
到头来才发现，自己还是放不下..

难道我们的起点，将会是我们的终点吗？
那我们还会不会有机会回到我们的起点？